I never thought I'd see the day when my mother asked me "Why don't you have a boyfriend?"
After years and years of telling me that i can't have one till I'm 21, all of a sudden she's telling me that I'm pretty enough so why don't I have a boyfriend yet?!?! Talk about the biological clock in overdrive. Personally, I don't know why I seem to be the only one in the world who's not meeting any guys. Maybe what a friend once told me was right - I'm too picky about the people I meet. And by self-admission, I am generally afraid to meet new people because my small-talk/socialization skills absolutely suck. I should probably get involved in a sport or something to meet new people, but team sports has never really been my thing...i'd love to joing horseriding again, but it's so far away...maybe once i get a car. Or rock climing or something...but I'm not strong enough for that, I can only climb those flat walls, and not very fast either :) Sometimes I wish I could just put aside all these doubts and go for something I'm interested in. It reminds me of the "What's wrong with eating out by yourself" debate. For those who don't know, this topic has received extensive coverage in many magazines and lifestyle sections of newspapers, largely initiated by singles who eat out and are tired of receiving pitying glances and sympathy from waiters. Is it really a sign of antisocialism or unhappy singledom when someone goes to a nice restaurant alone?
Me, I don't think I'd be brave enough to eat alone, even though I fully agree there's absolutely nothing wrong with it. My mind tells me that it's fine and it doesn't indicate anything about me, yet the emptiness of the chairs around the table, and the babble of noise from adjacent tables with whole entire groups of people are just...intimidating. It makes you feel inadequate, even if you know you're not.
Conclusion - I am a big fat chicken. Sigh...
And right now, i'm so tired and sleepy I'm not in any mood to do work which I know I should...they're due on tuesday and wednesday!!! I need panic to set in...*tries to panic* Nah. not working. Maybe go to watch tv ;p
1 pixie potion(s):
awww...those pics bring back so many memories.. isn't nostalgia such a great thing?
anyway dont worry too much abt the boyfriend thing.. the truth is u're only 18.. yeah u might have had one, or have one right now.. the question is are ya gonna marry them or is it just a status thing? anyway,i actually don't mind eating alone.. then again, i don't mind some time being alone.. but still need friends..so odd when u're shopping alone.. can't watch a movie alone either.. ;-)- dave
p/s kin seng's got a gf.. she wants to go the UK so now he wants to go to the UK.. if u remember kin seng, u'd be stumped, but not surprised :)
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